phantoms

did i just imagine you? or did i just imagine everything all along?

                                                                                                              

i still love you.

LOVE.HOPE.HATE.

"I don’t truley know what these words mean. I say them, post pictures of them and write one lined text posts about them, but I really don’t know what they mean. I’m changing and growing and learing, but I think I might be going too slow. I want to know these things, but I’m afraid. I’m scared of growing up. Why grow up? Isn’t it a painful process? Doesn’t it kill your youth? or is it something beautiful, like a gradual transition in adulthood remiscent to that of a caterpillar becoming a buterfly? Over here I’m falling apart again. From a thing I call “love”. I think I love this person. She knows me so well, and says that I know her so well. She amazing. I think I love her, and we get along so well. I tell her everything, and I think she tells me everything. I don’t think I’ve ever hoped for anything, only wished for silly material things, and about hate. I’ve never hated anyone or anything. I also hope I never do. There are so many better things to do."




i can't put my finger on why, but this is one of the most sincere and insightful little writings that i've stumbled upon in a while. i haven't been around my blog lately, and i've been battling myself about my yomissb.com site, but this was something i really wanted to share with my readers (o: i hope you find some solace in it too.

#fatbastard

spicy shrimp, spinach, and artichoke dip w/warm blue corn tortilla chips

grilled turkey burgers and sweet potato fries w/my favoritest roasted garlic aioli

close up, FTW

soooo... i'm addicted. it's a problem.

now can somebody come clean up this kitchen? i have a serious case of the itis, thanks.

lesson of the day:

"don't judge people according to their appearance..."

pretty cool, huh?

it's a lesson we all have the hardest time learning. people aren't Naturally judgemental; when we're 1 and 2 years old, we don't discriminate.. judging, one of the worst habits, is a learned habit. it's taught to us by our parents, by our peers, by the general public, it's everywhere..  but we don't Have to do it.

love what you love, like what you like. sometimes the pages of the book are NOTHING like the cover.

photos by Peter Chmela

this is a PSA

(chyea)

let's do it

funny how i picked this fortune cookie tonight...  i've been thinking a lot recently about how i've avoided doing certain things that i love doing, and a lot of that is purely circumstantial, either it's not the right time, or i'm not with the right person, or i don't have the means, or the tools, or i'm a little self-conscious, or i'm shy, or i'm just plain scared.

being scared is such a pointless emotion.... why should we be scared of anything?  i wish i wasn't sometimes, and that i could snap myself out of it at the drop of a dime and instead feel excited... truth is, anything that's scary is probably also pretty healthy for you- unless it's drugs or something. lol. i just mean-- if something really makes you feel that strongly, to the point where your knees shake, and you start second guessing yourself, it's probably crucial to your growth as a human, and you should probably just do it.

and thank yourself later.

i really hope i can pull this thing off, this thing called life. it's new and it's scary, but i love it.

and i'm doing it. i'm gonna do the shit out of it.

(ps - i'm totally feeling my cuticle game right now... lol)

"If you don’t feel that you are possibly on the edge of humiliating yourself, of losing control of the whole thing, then probably what you are doing isn’t very vital."

John Irving 

still.

found.

monday funday

toda cappuccino, double shot, two sugars

i've been treating you pretty poorly, huh? not a lot of writing on my blog these days, it's been highly neglected lol. first off i'll apologize for that, i've had a lot of you emailing me/twittering me/ leaving comments about how i never write anything personal anymore and it's somewhat of a disappointment.....

which is odd to me, because i feel like my personal life would really just make you pull your hair out! :oP

but let me take a quick minute to fill you guys in-  i've been posting a lot of open-ended questions via twitter, all having to do with the content of my official website, which will be up and running soon thanks to ms. saudia furcron (click to visit her website)

i was interested in finding out what sorts of things you'd like to see on my site, if there were any subjects you'd like me to touch on, any specific people you'd like to see me interview, any crazy and somewhat ridiculous things you'd like me to do, etc..  this website is for You, for your entertainment, to give you something to look at when you need some inspiration or a good laugh, somewhere to reach out to if you need advice or a shove in the right direction, all of those things.

and as for those of you who are subscribed to my blog (which will pack its bags and move over to the official site) i would love nothing less than to see you make the transition with me, i am so appreciative of the people who make my blog a daily pit stop. i plan on having lots of giveaways and sweet stuff for those who have subscriptions to the new site. plus it's just nice seeing familiar faces. (o:

 so all in all, as i ramble on from the jitters (how many times will i drink double shots on an empty stomach before i learn my lesson, geez)  i hope some of what i said made some sense because i'm feeling under the weather and i've been told that my brain doesn't function right when i'm sick (lol. yes, i repeat myself and walk into doorways).

feel free to hit me and let me know your ideas! i'd love to hear from you.

leave a comment or email me!

have a great day everybody!!

"no matter what people tell you, words and ideas can change the world"

- dead poets society

i will give you plankton

HAPPY THURSDAY EVERYONE!!!! (o: